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to love someone

Writer's picture: Reagan GardenhourReagan Gardenhour

Updated: Nov 22, 2022

some people say love is a feeling

to me, love is an action

to love somebody takes effort


self reflection

your mind is always roaming

wondering if your love is enough



but it’s not unless the other agrees

a bouquet of flowers or even a hug

could make someone feel so wanted

those three words mean nothing

unless the other agrees





 




my inspiration


my name is reagan. i am 18 years old,

born in the beautiful state of California. i moved to Pennsylvania

at 5 years old, and have lived here ever since.

i come from a major military family, where my opinions strongly

differ from those i was raised by.

my mindset has always been different than the people

around me. i believe that the sky is the limit,


and that life is a test

to see who can outdo the bare minimum, and shoot past the

standard construct of living. i am unwilling to live a forgettable and

regretful life. my dream is big.





 

Aspiring Fashion Influencer





an abstract aesthetic.

appreciate life for the little things.

plans are overrated.

live life for you and be creative.

outdo the normal.



my walk in closet

- mac miller prints: etsy

- mirror: athome

- palette table: hobby lobby

- divine feminine mirror: thrifted

- turf: ollie's

- records: harry styles, "fine line," and george harrison, "got my mind set on you"

- shelves: walmart

- tree: hobby lobby

- statue: homegoods

- aura canvas: athome


a writer.

an artist.

a photographer.

an influencer.

urban.

colorful.

i want people to do what makes them happy.

i want people to be happy.

i want people to feel and be invincible.


life is difficult. it is both the best and

worst gift of all.

mental health, disabilities, allergies, trauma,

and insecurities exist, and are very difficult to

handle; however, once you become fully

enlightened, you become fully invincible.

the standard of life is to be regular.

WHO WANTS TO BE REGULAR?

people are the fingerprints of earth. every person with a unique, different

set of characteristics that make them important. no one person will be

exactly the same, even twins, which makes the evolvement of media

and the world so intriguing. without humans, souls and companionship would

be completely unobtainable. humans were given the opportunity to strive

forth and beat the obstacles life throws, to prove the importance of human

life as we know it.




 


important self-evaluations

what are some things that are important to you?

- art.

i love being able to physically put into art what i feel emotionally. emotions can be a difficult thing to express, almost like how crying can show what you cannot put into words, feeling emotional vulnerability.

i like drawing. paying attention to detail. making others see the way that i am so meticulous in the way that i think that it almost seems unfathomable. coming up with different ideas for each emotion that make you seem unreal. having a blossoming brain filled with so many secrets and trauma can unload you into an entire world of blooming and creativity.

- decorating.

decorating my home is like art in a way, just less focused on the physical drawing aspect. it is still a form of art; however, many materialistic things are bought to fill the void of those feelings that cannot be expressed through physical drawing.

decorating expresses your brain in the way that when people see your home, they get a sense of what is going on in your head. my house is very colorful and abstract, because so many things flow through my brain everyday, and make me feel inferior to those around me. because of these feelings of doubt, i use my creative brain to show equality, in the way that i am just like other people, and the way that i decorate shows that i am unique, just like everybody else.

people have their interests, and they will never be exactly the same; moreover, all people deserve to be heard, loved, and appreciated.

- reading.

reading takes you to a different world. a world where you can escape. escape from the physical reality and appreciate imagination.

see, imagination does not go away depending on your age. imagination fixates on your current wants and needs. this gives me hope.

escaping for just a second makes me feel like everything i did was worth it. when i cannot get my emotions out in certain ways, i turn to reading, because i enjoy finding hope within fictional characters who i see myself within.

you can find yourself in anything. any character or person or thing, there is always something relatable to yourself within the other that creates a humbling sense of reality, which can make you feel safe and secure. you do not have to be perfect, you just have to remember your own lifestyle, and why you are where you are today.




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iyanna burton
iyanna burton
Nov 07, 2022

Very gorgeous

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